I am strategic about using my name openly... The significant question is: Do we feign life, or do we dare to live and speak authentically from our hearts in some way or another? -------------------------------------------- please take the time to read this entire message, even if you wish to skip thru it. It is from a fellow human being who cares and is in the continual process of learning and seeking understanding...via perfect imperfection, so once said a friend. -------------------------------------------- All libraries are now covertly under the control of federal political police. As in the 1960s when such actions were still illegal, the given rationale was to "protect" Americans. Those who care enough to read the history of political repression (overt and covert) in the u.s.a. can comprehend that such words as "protection" have a systematic pattern of fooling us. "A large part of [resolving the tension between independents and imposed powers] is assumed by ideological institutions that channel thought and attitudes within acceptable bounds, deflecting any potential challenge to established privilege and authority before it can take form and gather strength."--Noam Chomsky in preface of Necessary Illusions: Thought Control in Democratic Societies With this in mind, it is a sure bet that all who dare to challenge, however thought-through and beautiful, will be perceived as "threats" by a prevailing ideology whose severely alienated strategists see only a 'cut and dry' formulation of proceeding. Either "citizens" submit and conform on command, or "citizens" are constructed as the "enemy". Yet, if we are to follow our desires for sanity and the human potential to be excellent and beautiful with each other, we must not allow their lost behavior to silence us! We must not be intimidated! No matter what happens, there are always openings. When we look at the enormous odds that so-called "3rd World" peoples take on, we see the excellence of what human beings can be. I myself have noted a gamut of blocking devices and intimidations thrown into my way. From mail openings early on in my involvement, to unrelated police intimidations (yet knowing my 'rights' saved me from the worst, then). From having my websites hacked and taken down, to email blocked (I tested it from many angles to be sure), to strange problems with computers where I've had none like such before. And now, to an increasing experience of persons who seem to want to be "friends" yet seem to have no authentic understanding of how to go about such. This last one may be viewed as "paranoia" were it not for a recent experience touched on in the summary. I get a phone call (on my cell phone) from a new acquaintance who wants to meet me to give me a book I sought (after a week of not calling). I go to the place we are to meet a few minutes early, in the front lobby of the library, directly under camera surveillance. Curiously, one of these new acquaintances is standing there. We talk. It is a nice talk. Yet he seems to want to get information about me when he asks how much I know about the university's various resources. I refrain from giving any clues. He leaves, and maybe a minute later, another acquaintance, who hangs in the same group, approaches me. We talk for awhile, and I am on my guard. Then the person I'm borrowing an important book from (Don Miguel Ruiz's The Four Agreements) shows up. It is a curious situation. Preceeded by only a few days earlier where the two main characters entered into a place I've been regular with. I'd never seen any of them there in all the months I'd known them, and suddenly they begin showing up regularly. Well, I guess we'll see what happens from here. I accept that I can be overly "paranoid". Yet what can one say when one understands that a government elected under very strange circumstances, with millions of dollars to now legally carry out COINTELPRO-style warfare, will seek to carry out its beliefs? The only thing I can say, is that we need to remain vigilant and we would do well to understand their ways. In fact, I see that it is vital that we learn to comprehend the ways we have been and are now being tooled on a systematic basis. I'm reminded of the singer still played on the "Classic Rock" radio stations, where he says we should "get on our knees and pray that we don't get fooled again." The thing is, we are CONDITIONED to be fooled over and over again. We are hyped and we are propagandized by ALL elites whom perceive that they have something to gain by playing us. We would do well to follow our intuitions together with a careful study of the history of covert and overt action as such has been documented by gutsy independents working inside and outside the imposed ruling order. Examples: Brian Glick Nelson Blackstock Ward Churchill and Jim Vander Wall John Trudell The Black Panthers (which began nonviolently) The American Indian Movement CISPES Physicians for Nuclear Responsibility At the same time, learning the value of how to avoid the paralyzing paranoia and "the biggest cops" which have been conditioned into *our heads*. "There is, in my opinion, much too little inquiry into these matters. My personal feeling is that citizens of the democratic societies should undertake a course of intellectual self-defense to protect themselves from manipulation and control, and to lay the basis for more meaningful democracy. It is this concern that motivates the material that follows, and much of the work cited in the course of the discussion."--Chomsky in same link as above quote It is with this *course*, largely a self-taught one via dissenters, whistleblowers, and other gutsy challengers (whose words have spoken deeply to me), which I have undertaken and continue to try to share with others whom might be able to hear. I can only imagine that those with a fear-entrenched, severely alienated mindset, so used to dissenters who wish to demonize THEM in turn (and impose a new boss, same as the old boss) will continue "uping the ante" against all dissent, even as i claim to want to promote a sane world where seeking understanding and realizing the value of being excellent and beautiful with each other is the rule, rather than the exception. This idea is probably shared by many, though they have remained silent or silenced by ideologically-challenged, imposed "leaders" in the mainstream, the Right wing, the Left Wing, and in Anarchism. Only a seemingly few have been able to break through this chimerical wall of silence and speak of going beyond ALL of these ideologically-challenged Givens, even those imposed by the alleged "alternatives". One group has come from the alleged "anti-authoritarian" anarchists, the anarchists who also claim to be against ideology. These are the anarchists published in "Anarchy: A Journal of Desire Armed" (www.anarchymag.org). They speak sensibly-enough about escaping the constraints of the Left and Right "wings", and I agree. And I agree with them that most of the masses already are sick and tired of "reform" politics, and intuitively avoid them, and would like to be inspired by something seriously different. Still, my understanding is that these anarchists don't go far enough. They still perpetuate a rigid, quite ideological dichotomy, an 'Us vs Them'-ISm, ideology or no ideology, which doesn't seem to allow room for individual human beings whom have been coerced and fooled into submitting to belief systems which seem to completely surround them and isolate and pressure conformity. Thus, I see quite a human CONTEXT to such behavior--a "natural" consequence where powerless-feeling people caught in this situation would submit, at least on the outside, in appearance; even betraying fellow people (if feeling forced to do so), stuck in the isolated cynicism that they have been conditioned into so deeply. Whereas, these cut and dry "anti-authoritarian" anarchists don't seem to be able to nor want to allow for a grey area, except amongst themselves! And such a situation seems to only keep us all strategically and deeply divided. Because there are always CONTEXTS to human behavior, and without understanding, without CARE, we can only perpetuate war. And this belief that such stupidity is the only thing humans can do is that which systematically turns people's original overt or hidden SPIRIT of *wanting to challenge unfairness and tyranny* into a hardened cynicism. This "death culture" as some have articulated it, might well lead to the ultimate annihilation of humanity weren't it for the curious situation of how certain "elite" cultures are groomed for and allowed to be much more constructive. Look, I know I'm running on, but I don't know how else to get this across! And now is as good a time as any. Who knows whether I'll be "detained" at any time??? (Please bear with me even if you think I'm completely off my rocker in "paranoia"; if you knew my background, you might understand more clearly) Notably, not ALL groups of humans are so dealt with. In those schools deemed as training grounds for elites, for the future policymakers of society, this cynical undercurrent is nonexistent, or marginalized, at least as far as it remains within the basic framework. (Outside the framework, "idealists" rather quickly "learn" the "impossibility" of keeping their "priviledged" position; Gore Vidal and Chomsky certainly understand this well) Take one area in the u.s.a. where this grooming is going full throttle: Pepper Pike, Ohio, a small suburb of Cleveland. Here, we find schools set up for materialistically priviledged youth (priviledge other than that may be chimerical) who are viewed as *being able* to make a difference. Now, that's a code word, "making a difference". It means that these elites are being allowed the opportunity to gain high position *in the existing framework*. They all have a background of systematic affirmation. All surrounding them tell them that they can "succeed". They don't get cynical, but in their alienation from those not groomed similarly, assume bigoted things like we now have "elites" assuming about the "stupid masses". Then you have the mainline media constantly reinforcing that belief, with their contextless stories and hype (propaganda), and you will believe it too. So, I'm trying to articulate all this on a systematic basis and this is viewed as "disruptive" and "dysfunctional" of me. After all, I'm SUPPOSED TO just follow orders as a nice little implementer (called "artist") of the policies that are created by mystified methods. This is dangerous within a world of perpetual war mentality. So I suspect that I have become under increasing note due to my persistent efforts to articulate this and at the same time utilize my creative gifts as responsibly as I can imagine. If I am to be silenced by whatever means (forced into a psychiatric hospital, jailed on spurious charges, or murdered), then this is what I am training myself to face. I see a spiritual path that I walk upon, not knowing where this path goes. I know when I walk upon it because beautiful things seem to happen. It is so strange. All my love to the people who are seeking to articulate their hearts. We all have blindspots, yet we can persist with this knowledge in a *process* where I can learn from you and hopefully you will see the value of learning from me. Aho metaqueeassenn (spelling?), to all my relations! Though you whom have inspired me are "strangers" mostly, I love you for caring enough and daring to speak so that i can hear! John Trudell, Noam Chomsky, Thomas Szasz, Brian Glick, Ward Churchill, Saul Alynsky (passed on), Herbert Brun (passed on), R.D. Laing (passed on), John Holt (passed on), Aldous Huxley (passed on), Tom O'Carroll, Jason McQuinn, Carlos Castenada, Don Miguel Ruiz, et al. May we all meet in the next life/dimension and hand out together and send love vibes to all we meet!