Leftist Conservatism
(part one: A personal perspective)
9-05-02


There is a crisis on the left.

Ever since John Stuart Mill progressives and free-thinkers have been fighting for their right to be heard without censorship and to circumvent the “I know what’s good for you” attitude of the capitalist elite. But the “left” have embraced their own elite and the rest of us be damned!

Please allow me to share but one personal experience concerning this issue that has happened to me over the last year. On 10-01-01 I wrote an article called Think About It which detailed strange coincidences of the events of 9-11 and brought up the possibility of U. S. governmental and corporate involvement in those events. I wrote the piece BEFORE the war and it’s intent was to prevent us from ever going to war. I emailed the article to every media outlet and every progressive and social-justice organization I could find on the Net. With one exception I went completely ignored.

The exception was an anarchist web-site that I have long since forgotten but the reaction I received from the fellow was quite encouraging and appreciated. He was absolutely flabbergasted and enlightened by the points I raised. He kindly posted the piece on his web-site and I received one or two favorable responses and that was that.

During this time I tried to get involved with an organization called the ISO, the International Socialist Organization. I caught them just as they were preparing an anti-war campaign and I wanted to get involved in that too.

I attended a public forum they arranged at UCLA. The turn out was great. Several people spoke and the rest nodded politely in agreement, all fine and good. Then I stood and spoke. I spoke the truth saying basically that our sympathies must not shift to the couple of thousand people who died in the attacks. We must maintain our focus on the 50 million American poor who suffer everyday at the hands of those who died and the many elitists just like them who are alive and well and who continue to profit from their attacks on the American people. More people die every week due to the poverty perpetuated and profited by Wall Street so, although its perfectly alright to mourn those who died on 9-11 lets mourn ALL who died on 9-11, including those who go ignored and forgotten… the American poor! I ended by reminding those in attendance that the targets chosen by the attackers were economic and military… absolutely fair game in any war. I never once condoned the attacks but merely put them in truthful and real perspective.

If what I’ve been told about the Alquieda is true they are every bit as bad as the targets they attacked. Being an enemy of my enemy does not make you my friend. Standing for compassion, truth, justice and equality is THE only thing that’ll make you my friend.

I received an outburst of applause that surprised even me! No speaker received applause before I spoke and I sure as hell wasn’t expecting any but sure ‘nuff, there it was. But it didn’t take long for a man saying he was a college professor, an elitist, to stand and basically trash everything I said taking much of what I said out of context, convoluting it and making it seem cold and cruel and the entire audience turned against me simply based upon the opinion of one man who claimed to be my superior because he had a degree hanging on his wall.

For the life of me how could anyone claiming to be a supporter of social justice side with the thieves and liars at wall street and the warmongers at the pentagon over one of their own? It baffles me even today.

What I learned about myself is that although I suffer from the fear of public speaking, I have an incredible ability to move people through the passion and no-holds barred truth of what I have to say.

After that fiasco at UCLA I attended several more ISO meetings. I got up during the last meeting I attended and offered to share with them two pieces I’ve written. One called Think Free, which proves the existence of a contemporary American police state written before 9-11 and the afore mentioned Think About It saying about the latter that this brings into question U. S. involvement in the events of 9-11 and this is exactly what we need to be concentrating on. This, better than any other argument, can prevent a U. S. attack upon the Afghan people. I was absolutely shunned and even taken aside and scolded! MY GAWD! There was at most ten people in room. All I was doing was sharing my ideas with those I believed to be my friends and who shared my concerns. But I was a nobody and not worth listening to. Not one person responded to either of my pieces although I had listed my phone number and email address at the end of each article. This lead to the conclusion that they believed me to be so worthless that they weren’t going to read anything I’ve written just out of spite and their false belief of their superiority over me!

I notified the national ISO office via email and they too refused to address my concerns not only about the articles but also about the way I was treated. Sounds like capitalism to me. As a matter of fact I’ve been treated the exact same way by every capitalist organization or “business” I’ve ever complained to.

During all of this I persuaded another web-site called “victory is certain” to forward Think About It to it’s subscribers. This site basically forwards published progressive news items from the main stream press and other media sources. Although it was never done with any of their other forwards that they sent, they believed it necessary to put a disclaimer on my piece in essence saying this was a story from a nobody who pressured us into sending his article. He doesn’t really have the intelligence to have anything important to say but here it is. I was just happy that they forwarded my piece. Again I received a few favorable responses and that was that for over 6 months.

A few months ago, around May I believe, even the main-stream press began to hint at these ideas that I so desperately tried to bring to the attention of the public about 6 months before. Since I recognized a possible trend I quickly asked “victory is certain” if they would re-issue my story. They not only refused they completely ignored me.

So I found another web-site called “yellow journalism” to post it. But can you believe this?...this web-site refused to spell my name correctly! I notified them saying my name is spelled in all lower case at all times. DAMN! It’s my fucking name… I’ll spell it as I damned well please but they didn’t care. What good is having your own web-site if you can’t tell people what to do? Anyway, I let it go knowing the story was more important than their elitist prejudices. Again I received a few favorable responses and let it be known that I greatly appreciate every bit of constructive feed back I have ever received.

Then at the end of August 2002 “Victory is Certain” forwarded a piece about a man named Ruppert who had written a book that was making quite a splash in leftist circles covering the very issues that I raised nearly a year ago in Think About It. This man was going to a radio station called KPFK, located in North Hollywood, CA, to talk about this book.

I again notified “victory is certain” asking them to re-forward my piece this time directly referring to the Ruppert forward they themselves sent to me and again I was completely ignored.

So I emailed 5 or 6 different administrators at KPFK telling them I had beat Ruppurt to the punch by nearly a year and asked them to set the record straight. Again I was ignored except by one person named Sonali. She responded by saying it was too bad I can’t prove my claims but credit isn’t as important as the story getting out. There are so many things wrong with that statement it ain’t funny. She basically just called me a liar. I told her my proof was my word and if credit isn’t important then why give Ruppert credit? Why give anyone credit for anything? Anyway, I sent her proof, naming web-site postings and sending a copy of the article. I never heard from her again.

Meanwhile I asked “Victory is Certain” if they wouldn’t be so kind as to confirm to KPFK the fact that they forwarded my piece way back in October 2001. And lo and behold a miracle occurred… they responded! But alas they kept telling me.. I don’t know what I can do… and finally after my third attempt with this person he replied by saying I don’t have a copy of your piece… you send it to them!

UH?... I never once asked this person to send them a copy of the article… I merely wanted him to confirm when he had forwarded it and I got so frustrated at his inability to read simple English I exploded. He refused to tell the truth so I have given up on him.

Meanwhile I have directly phoned Ruppert's organization itself and emailed them a copy of my article and SURPRISE!.... haven’t heard a word from him.

So since all the administrators at KPFK have ignored me I emailed about 15 people who produce and or hosts programs at their station asking for help. Even contacting an organization called “Democracy Now” that actually has a large section on the front page of KPFK’s web-site. Only two persons responded one saying she can’t help because she only hosts a music program. She still could’ve helped but chose not to interfere with the elitists who run the station.

The other response came from a host of a program called “Community Voices.” She explained that Ruppert gets special attention at the station because they already know him. She did not say it was right and for that I thank her. But still she refused to do anything to help fix the problem. She did ask me to send her an essay about the misery I suffer because of my poverty. She’d like to eventually have me record it so she might play it on the air and I did so but as of yet I haven’t heard a reply.

Finally, just yesterday, after leaving several voice messages for her to call me, I got a hold of the General Manager of the KPFK. When I mentioned Ruppert she sighed with admiration and said .. Ohhhh, Michael?.. like they were old friends. She blew me off referring me to the programming manager/director. Although I haven’t heard a final decision from him yet, I hope I’m wrong but I bet he ignores me further, he rationalized the inhuman treatment of me by his staff by using his own life experience as an example. Basically what he said was he’d been ignored and denied credit his entire life so now that he’s in the position to do it to others he’s going to take advantage of it (the old capitalist rational for perpetuating misery and injustice). I appealed to his sense of fairness saying now he has a chance to treat someone better than the way he’d been treated. He finally agreed to read the article… (how nice) … and we’ll just have to wait and see if he will decide to do the right thing, tell the truth and give credit where credit is due.

All of this had an easy solution; Apologize (the “elite” on the left are so rude. What ever happened to phrases like, thank you, I’m sorry, your welcome, good job.) and then let me have my say. Ta-da!... problem solved. But instead they have reacted the very same way corrupt business leaders and government officials react; cover-up and deny, deny, deny. When are they going to learn?

It’s essential that it be understood that I am not claiming Ruppert stole my idea. I’ll bet 1000’s of people had the same suspicions about 9-11 that I had but I was the first to write about them. And from what I have read of Ruppert’s book he has taken what I wrote and added many aspects to this issue that I would’ve never been able to uncover. Good for him.

Also I have absolutely no complaint with what KPFK is doing in the community. I think they serve a good purpose and their existence is vital.

I agree, for the most part, with everything the ISO claims to stand for.

“Victory is Certain” does a great job and informed me of many things I would’ve never been aware of otherwise.

And that professor at the UCLA anti-war forum made a point about the importance of declaring yourself a citizen of the world. He’s right.

All I am doing is demanding the same respect and kindness from them that I have given to them and that all humans deserve. All I expect is the truth.

One difference about me that no else in this article can claim, except “Victory Is Certain,” is that I WILL NEVER DEMAND OR EXPECT or even ask for money from anyone! I don’t want your damned money! Money is for fools and is THE one cause of all the problems in the world. I will never profit from the misery of others. My ideas are for all regardless of your social status and ability to pay.

One conclusion I’ve come to through my years of pain and struggle is that no one is better than you or me! And the only people we are better than are those who believe they are better than us and then we are better than them ONLY because they believe themselves to be better than us.

I have been ignored by the “The Nation”, “Mother Jones”, “The Village Voice”… the list is as long as my arm. They would all prefer to publish those same tired old writers who have absolutely nothing new to say; the doctor and Ph. D. dorks and ex-government fascists and reformed corrupt capitalists and professors… you know… the elite of the left.

Common Cause only wanted my money. Green Peace only wanted me to beg for money for them. Every organization I have ever contacted says you can only participate in the social justice movement if you pay us! What kind of a damned socialist would ever say such a thing?

We need to re-evaluate ourselves. We need to stop being hypocrites and start living like we’re preaching. We need to set examples people … not rationalize our own selling out.

And lastly we need to stop our own elitist attitudes. Capitalism is NOTHING but elitism. That’s all it is. Socialism is nothing but the absence of elitism. Socialism has nothing to do with ownership of anything; not of the means of production, not of the press not of the society itself. How can a system where ownership is impossible be defined by ownership? Ownership is an abstraction, a capitalist concept. We cannot continue to define socialism using capitalist terms. We need to stop putting people on pedestals, Marx, Reed, Hoffman, Chomsky, Moore and yes, even Ruppert are the elitists of the left and no one else can get a word in edge wise. And all I can see is that the left have made no progress in the last 30 years. These elite the left worship so are doing something wrong yet blindly we follow them into the void of failure.

Elitism isn’t about wealth it’s about power and control. And conservatism isn’t an ideology it’s the acceptance, enforcement and perpetuation of the status quo and the social justice movement has become just as conservative within its own ranks as the fascists they claim to abhor.

We social progressives have fallen into the capitalist trap of hero worship, covering up and denying our own mistakes and the perpetuation of failed ideas. We desperately need to embrace new concepts and strategies and welcome ALL who have contributions to make towards the goal of social justice.

c. j. macq
equality IS freedom!

(part 2 of this 2 part series will deal with the specific archaic concepts and tired old strategies that the left refuse to let go of even as the ship is sinking.)