I can't get no...SATISFACTION!

God, I love rock and roll.
How apt that a song that first got me kicking out the jams as a wee little fucker should describe periods of my life so well.
Lately I haven't been writing because I'm too busy in the 'real' world, I'm scared [or overly cautious] that I'll reveal too much about ...well...too much, and MOSTLY because no matter how I say anything about so many things lately it just seems like all I'm really doing is bitching about things instead of offering solutions or admitting that it isn't the thing that needs changing IT'S MY VIEW OF IT!
Sure it appears we're shitting our nest past the point of no return, BUT MAYBE THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT THIS EARTH NEEDS FOR IT'S NEXT LEAP FORWARD INTO A STATE OF GROWTH NOONE IS ALL SEEING ENOUGH TO PREDICT, all our newfangled fertilizer, synthetics and such, buried in countless dumps, becoming completely new foodstuffs for those organisms to come LONG after we're gone or if we make it as a specie to provide us with medicines we'll need on other planets. WHO KNOWS! Not me, and that's my only point here, TO ADMIT MY IGNORANCE AND PROVIDE THE REASON I'VE SHUT UP HERE LATELY.
And to say my mind has flushed itself [reopened] and therefore since I know nothing it can be filled up again with something that can give me satisfaction once more.
Hopefully.
Like the word "holy".
Gotta get holey or empty so I can be holy...
Again.
Hopefully.
Nothing can be static for too long, staying in one place, before it begins to dis-integrate.
Especially me.
Things I saywritedolive become dissatisfying and I begin looking for 'outs' to escape with and before long I find I'm back to my old deadend tricks of substance abuse, something I've learned my lessons from and can NO longer afford, and just don't want..
SO...
I wanna say that no matter what I'll stand behind what I've said up to this point in all my blogs. I may wish to moderate or clarify some things if called upon but I MEANT WHAT I SAID.
Especially when it comes to my 'radical' views on politics. I MEAN IT!
But...
I now wanna add this;
America [as opposed to aMERIKA] is an experiment as all efforts at human interaction [politics] are. It is an experiment. An experiment at a totally new form of government compared to everything that came before, especially kings and queens.
It is not without it's problems, NOTHING IS.
This is a good reason to recognize and change the problems if possible and if some do that in a 'radical' fashion that is just another of the ways to appreciate differences in people and how they do things. It is no cause for persecution. Nothing is, except to stop someone from harming themselves or others when they need to be stopped.
I FUCKING LOVE AMERICA! I LOVE AMERICA! Yeah, i truly love America the land mass. The country. The TREES, the dirt, the air, the critters, the MOUNTAINS!, the RIVERS!, the deserts, the plains, COASTS!, and everything FROM SEA TO SHINING SEA!
And I love the PEOPLE! The fat ones, skinny ones, rich ones, poor ones, THE RED ONES!, the black ones, the yellow ones, the white ones and the ones with scales especially, and even everybody not included above, YEAH! YOU TOO!
The government?
No.
I do not like how it has turned out.
But it's an experiment that IS gonna run it's course AND ANYONE ATTEMPTING TO REVERSE IT'S FLOW AT THIS POINT is acting like someone walking into the Mississippi River with, no matter if it's a hand held sign or the baddest 'assault' rifle made [or TANK!], and trying to tell the old man, "CHANGE COURSE"!
IT AIN'T GONNA HAPPEN!
This supposed constitutional republic of 'failsafe' checks and balances has been as easily corrupted as wo/man itself and each of us individually so we'll just have to keep trying experiments of human interaction till we get it right one day and ALL needs for ALL people are provided for at the least possible cost to each.
Then we can be satisfied that tyrants are out of business, that everyone throughout the world are provided for and noone lives off the sweat of another, and that the path of ascension to discover our innate BEING [the answers to "Who am I?", "Where did I come from?", "Where am I going?"] is the first wisdom handed down from parent to child and is then expounded upon throughout our life journey by all we come in to contact with. IT CAN BE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It is our CHOICE!
And the path there is ALREADY mapped out.
We just gotta make those baby steps to start us toward getting there.....one step at a time.....IT! CAN!! BE!!!

Steppenwolf said this years ago [1968?]...;

Humanity grew weary
Of it's doubtful state of mind

So it summoned from far and called from near
All the wise men thought to be sincere
To heal it's wounds and make it whole
And the lead the way back to the soul

The charlatans they stayed behind
To count their bags of gold
And some stayed away as if to say
I know that my way's the only way
Afraid to learn they may be wrong
They preach their nothingness at home

But the wise men came together with the hope to free man kind
Of the rubbish that had gathered in god's name
To embrace and trust each other in the search for the supreme
And they found that all their teachings
were the same

And when at last the word went round
That all were one and all
Many returned to seek the light
Nobody claimed that he was right
It's sad to know it's just a song
To dream and hope still can't be wrong.
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Spiritual Fantasy [CHECK IT OUT! Great song!]
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In the meantime, while we're making those baby steps, we gotta know that any hierarchy of systems [and governments] is made up of those things and/or people on top and bottom. EACH OF US MAKE THE DIFFERENCE or the similarity. If we want change, we gotta change ourself. If we want peace, we gotta be peaceful. If we want pain and hurt, we give it, and we'll get it. And so we make up our minds, our homes, our towns, our countries, our governments, and our world.
If we do this and yet still see strife, pain, conflict and too much of those things considered negative by most then we just aren't concentrating on the positive things enough. We're not as busy changing ourself as we should be.

THERE IS A PLACE FOR EVERY ABERRATION OF BEHAVIOR IMAGINABLE.
But is that place for us? As individuals?
We decide. NOONE ELSE.
If it's not our thing why do it or bother to look at it?
Curiousity?
OK.
But what made you curious about it to begin with?
The greatest question one can ask oneself is, WHY?

So anyhow, I ain't here to preach or teach, I AIN'T WORTHY. I only wanted to get some clarity into my blogs for my balance and so any who read this can better understand what I'm saying, and so some others won't be misunderstanding me and thinking I'm worth a harder look. Cause I ain't. I'm harmless or trying my best to be.
One vday I wish to ascend under my invisibility [cause I got no secrets to conceal], cause I'm the nicest guy anyone ever met, and because I cause absolutely no harm to any of G-Ds sentient BEINGS cause I'm a wonderfully enlightened Buddhist lover of all things and a TRUE ROLLING STONE!
Just rolling along in G-Ds heaven here on our beautiful Mother Earth digging the changes and constantly learning better how to FLOW TILL I GLOW...

Be-live it or not, that is truly how I feel.
Just wanted to say that.

Here's a couple or three quotes I never forget;

"People change when the pain of remaining the same becomes greater than the pain of making the change".
Forgot the author, SORRY.
[I'm in pain bad lately, time for change. Hence my silence. Dissatisfied with all I been writing..]

"Gods gift to you is your life, what you do with it is your gift to God."
Forgot author, SORRY.
[What I've done compared with what I was capable of doing makes me sick and tired, and VERY DISSATISFIED!!! Which is a monumental understatement.]

"Joy is peace dancing, Peace is Joy at rest."
Forgot author, SORRY.
I feel like dancing, but joy and peace are eluding me lately. So some changes are in order. Gotta renew efforts to overcome me. Not an easy task as full of myself as I am!

So there it is.
I want to write stuff that helps folks see themselves better but not if it's written in a manner that puts ANYTHING down. I wanna get things, AND ESPECIALLY PEOPLE, picked up, we've all had enough putting down...

Maintain, [is one of the few sayings from the counterculture that I was REALLY fond of. It meant, and still does, to try and retain those lessons from marijuana, LSD, DMT, Peyote, Psilocybin, and other psychedelics that one learned. It meant to be cool. It meant to stay above the herd, the hive, the flock. It meant to keep your head when all around is chaos. It meant to be Beautiful. It meant to stand up for Truth, Justice, and the Dreams of Freedom and Equality and all else that was of Value. Which is mite near everthang...
It never really meant see ya' later or goodbye, but one could take it, or give it, that way. So maintain...ya'll...]

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